Amish Christmas Memories Page 3

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  The next morning, Caleb took as long with his chores as he dared. There was really no point in avoiding Rachel. She lived in their house now, and he would have to get used to her being around.

  His mind darted back to her long hair. It wasn’t brown exactly, or chestnut—more the warm color of honey. It had reminded him of kitten fur. As she’d stood next to him in the kitchen, he’d had the irrational urge to reach out and comb his fingers through it. The moonlight had softened her expression, and for a moment the look of vulnerability had vanished. Sure, it had vanished and been replaced with anger.

  He remembered her parting words and almost laughed. He’d only been trying to help, but he’d never been particularly tactful. The fact that she’d called him on it...well, it showed that she had spunk and hopefully that she was healing. He decided to take it for a good sign rather than be offended.

  When he walked into the kitchen, he noticed that her hair was properly braided, and she’d apparently borrowed one of his mother’s kapps. Unfortunately, she wore the same dress as the day before. She gave him a pointed look, as if daring him to say something about it, but what could he say? It really wasn’t his business. He’d done his duty by warning her. The rest was out of his hands.

  Everyone sat at the table, waiting on him, so he washed his hands quickly and joined them. After a silent prayer, he began to fill his plate. He heaped on portions of scrambled eggs, sizzling sausage, homemade biscuits and breakfast potatoes, which were chopped and fried with onions and bell pepper.

  “Someone’s hungry this morning,” Ida said.

  “Ya. Mucking out stalls can do that to a man.” He noticed that Rachel was eating, and she looked rested. “How are you feeling this morning, Rachel?”

  “Better. Thank you, Caleb.” Her tone was rather formal, and the look she gave him could freeze birds to a tree branch.

  He nodded and focused on his plate of food. When he was nearly finished, he began to discuss the day’s work with his father. They had a small enough farm—only seventy acres—but there was always work to do.

  “Guess I’ll finish mending that fence this morning.”

  “Ya, gut idea.”

  His mother jumped up and fetched the coffeepot from the stove burner. She refilled everyone’s mugs, starting with Rachel’s. Usually his mother threw in her opinion on their work, but she’d been deep in conversation with Rachel the entire meal. They’d been thick as thieves talking about who knew what—girl stuff, he supposed.

  “Have you thought any more about the alpacas?” Caleb asked.

  His father added creamer to his coffee. “I’m a little hesitant, to tell you the truth. I know nothing about the animals.”

  “They’re a good investment,” Caleb insisted. “Mr. Vann has decided he’s too old to manage such a big farm.”

  Ida looked up in surprise. “It’s hardly bigger than ours, and Mr. Vann is only—”

  “Nearly seventy.”

  “Not so old, then.” His father shared a smile with his mom. Must have been an old-people’s joke, though his parents were only forty-eight.

  “He has no children close enough to help on a daily basis,” Caleb explained. “He’s gifting the farm to his children and grandchildren, who will only use it for a weekend place. Obviously they can’t keep the alpacas.”

  “I’m wondering if it’s the best time of year to get into a new business.”

  “Better than planting season or harvesting, and he’s letting them go cheap. I’m telling you, if we don’t get them today, they’ll probably be gone.”

  “Even a bargain costs money,” John said.

  “Ya, I’m aware of that, but we have plenty put back.”

  “What good are they, Caleb?” His mother held up a hand. “I’m not arguing with you. It’s only that I know nothing about them.”

  “The yarn is quite popular,” Rachel said.

  Everyone turned to stare at her. She blushed the color of a pretty rose and added, “I don’t know how I knew that.”

  “Did you maybe have alpacas before? At your parents’ farm?”

  “I don’t—I don’t think so, but I can remember the yarn. Spinners and knitters and even weavers use it.”

  “Any chance you recall how much trouble they are to raise?” His father laughed at his own joke, and then he reached across the table and patted her hand. “I don’t expect you to answer that. I was only teasing because my son seems set on bringing strange animals onto our farm.”

  “I thought you were a traditionalist,” Rachel said, then immediately pressed her fingers to her lips as if she wanted to pull back the words.

  But if Caleb was worried he might have to answer that, might have to explain in front of his parents their conversation the night before, he was pleasantly mistaken.

  Ida was up and clearing dishes, and she answered for him. “Oh, ya. In nearly every way that’s true. Caleb is quite traditional.”

  “Unless it comes to animals,” his father said. “We’ve tried camels.”

  “How was I to know they’d be so hard to milk?”

  “And goats.”

  “We learned a lot that time.”

  “Ya, we learned if water can go through a fence, then so can a goat.”

  “We’re a little off topic here.” Caleb tried to ignore the fact that Rachel was now grinning at him as if she’d discovered the most amusing thing that she might insult him with later. “Let’s just go look at the alpacas together. We could go this morning, and I’ll fix the fence this afternoon.”

  “How about we do it the other way around?”

  “Deal.”

  He was up and out of his chair, already glancing at the clock. If he worked quickly, they could be there before noon—surely before anyone else came along and bought the alpacas out from under their noses.

  “Caleb, would you mind making sure that the front porch and steps are free of ice?”

  “The front porch?”

  “We’re going to have visitors, and I don’t want anyone slipping.”

  Visitors? On a Tuesday morning? “I was headed out to work on the fence line.”

  “And then look at alpacas. I heard.”

  He tugged on his ear. His mother was acting so strangely. Since when did she have weekday visitors? When had she ever asked him to clean off the front-porch steps?

  “Shouldn’t take but a few minutes,” his father said. “Your mother wouldn’t ask if she didn’t need it.”

  The rebuke was mild, but still he felt his cheeks flushing.

  “Ya, of course. Anything else?”

  “You could move your muddy boots off the front porch, as well as that sanding project you’ve never finished.”

  “Did I miss something? Are we having Sunday service here on a Tuesday?” He meant it as a joke, but it came out as a whine.

  Rachel jumped up to help his mother, not even attempting to hide her smile.

  “Some ladies are stopping by.” His mother reached up and patted his shoulder. “I just don’t want them tripping over your things.”

  He rolled his eyes but assured her that he’d take care of it right away.

  When he stepped out onto the front porch, his dad clapped him on the back. “Give them a little space. Your mamm, she’s happy to have another girl around the place.”

  “Ya, that makes sense, but—”

  “She’s convinced that Gotte brought Rachel into our lives for a reason.”

  “To give me more work?”

  “And, of course, we all want to make the transition easier for Rachel. This is bound to be a difficult time.”

  From the grin on Rachel’s face, he didn’t think it was as difficult as his father imagined, but instead of arguing with him, he found the stiff outdoor broom and began sweeping the steps to make sure there was no
ice or water or snow there. Woman’s work, he thought, but that wasn’t what was bothering him. Change was in the air, and Caleb had never been one to embrace change—unless it was regarding farm animals.

  In every other way, stubborn and old-fashioned was more his style.

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  Ida had shared with Rachel that a few ladies would be stopping by. “They heard about your situation and want to help.”

  She wasn’t sure what that meant, but she’d nodded politely, and then Caleb had brought up alpacas, and the conversation had twisted and turned from there.

  Now it was nearly noon, and she plopped onto the couch and stared at the items stacked on the coffee table.

  Ida sat across from her, holding a steaming mug of coffee. “Seems everyone from our community pitched in. It’s gut, ya?”

  “Of course. I’m a bit stunned. How did they even know that I’d need these things? How did they know I was here?”

  “Word travels fast in an Amish community. Certainly you remember that.”

  “We used to call it the Amish grapevine.”

  Ida laughed. “I’ve heard that before, too, but ‘grapevine’ has a gossipy sound to it. This is really just neighbors helping neighbors.”

  Rachel picked the top dress off the pile of clothes. The color was midnight blue—Caleb would be happy about that—and the fabric was a good cotton that would last. It was also soft to the touch. She ran her hand across it, humbled by all that these women, who were strangers to her, had given.

  “We’ll need to take those in, of course. You’re shorter and smaller than Rebekah’s girls.”

  “Won’t they need these?”

  “Not likely, both have put on a good bit of weight since marrying, and that was before they were expecting her first grandchildren. No, I don’t think they’ll be needing them back.”

  There were underclothes, kapps, two outdoor bonnets and a coat. All except the underclothes were used, but in good condition. Someone had brought a Bible and a journal for writing in. She thought those might come in handy. Dr. Gold had mentioned that writing a little every day might help her memories return. There was also a new scarf and gloves, knitted in a dark gray that had a touch of shimmer to it. “This is beautiful work.”

  “Melinda can do wonders with a knitting needle. I’ve always been more of a crochet person myself.”

  Rachel stood up, went to the room she was staying in and returned with the blue scarf she’d apparently been wearing when Caleb had found her. No coat, but a scarf—strange indeed. “I think—I think I might be a knitter.”

  “That’s why you knew about the alpaca yarn.”

  “Maybe. I think so. I know this is called a stockinette pattern—you alternate rows of knitting with rows of purling.” She closed her eyes, could almost see herself adjusting the tension in her yarn, squinting at a pattern, knitting needles flying. She could be imagining, or she could be remembering. There was no way to know.

  “Are you remembering anything else?”

  “Only that this—” She ran her fingers over the scarf, then draped it around her neck. “It seems very familiar.”

  “That’s a beginning.”

  “If only I could remember more, but when I try, the headaches return.”

  Ida walked over to the bookcase and brought back the packet of information from the doctor at the hospital. Rachel had already rifled through it twice. There were instructions, what to expect, warning signs, as well as two cards—one for her next appointment with Dr. Gold and another card with the name and contact information for a Dr. Michie. She’d spoken with the doctor a few minutes before leaving the hospital. She was a counselor of some sort and had told Rachel to call her if she’d like to make an appointment.

  Ida sat beside Rachel on the couch and they both stared down at the top page.

  Ida read aloud from the sheet. “‘Symptoms of a concussion include brief loss of consciousness.’”

  “Check.”

  “‘Memory problems.’”

  “We all know I have that.”

  “‘Confusion.’”

  Rachel leaned forward, propped her elbows on her knees and pressed her fingertips to her forehead. “Sometimes, when I can’t remember how I know something, I feel terribly confused.”

  Ida nodded and continued with the list. “‘Drowsiness or feeling sluggish.’”

  “Twice this morning I went back and laid down on the bed for a few minutes.”

  “Only because I insisted. You need to recognize when things are overwhelming you. It’s important for a woman to learn to take care of herself. You’re no use to your family—”

  “I don’t have one.”

  “Or anyone else if you allow yourself to become ill or exhausted.”

  Rachel heard the concern in Ida’s voice, but she couldn’t bring herself to meet her gaze. “I’m batting a thousand, as my bruder would say...”

  She slapped her hand over her mouth.

  Ida reached over and clutched her hand. “That’s gut, Rachel. You’re starting to remember. That’s a gut sign.”

  “I suppose.”

  “Can you remember his name?”

  “Nein.”

  “Older or younger?”

  She closed her eyes and tried to picture her family, tried to recall anything from her past, but to no avail.

  Her heart was racing and her mind was spinning off in a dozen directions, but she couldn’t quite grasp even one solid piece of information about her former life—other than she had a brother. Was he worried? Was he looking for her?

  Finally, she motioned for Ida to continue with the list of symptoms. They knew she had a concussion, the doctor had confirmed as much, but it helped to know that the things she was feeling and experiencing weren’t unusual.

  “‘Dizziness or blurred vision.’”

  “A little yesterday, when I first woke up in the hospital.”

  “‘Headache.’”

  “Ya, especially when I try to remember.”

  “‘Nausea or vomiting.’”

  “Not since I started eating.”

  “‘Sensitivity to light.’”

  “That’s on there?” She scooted closer and peered at the sheet. “I tried going outside for a few moments earlier, but the sunshine felt like a pitchfork in my brain. I found myself wishing I had my sunglasses.”

  “Another puzzle piece. You have a bruder and you wore sunglasses.”

  “Doesn’t everyone?”

  “Perhaps.” Ida tapped the last item on the list. “What about balance problems? Any trouble there?”

  “I’m not sure. Let’s check.” Rachel jumped up and pretended to walk a straight line, holding her hands out to the side. She pivoted and started back toward Ida, touching her nose with first her right and then left index finger as she walked. Ida began to laugh, and then Rachel began to laugh, and soon they were giggling like schoolgirls.

  And, of course, that was the moment that Caleb walked inside, a frown pulling down the corners of his mouth. Why did he always seem to be disapproving of her? She pitied the woman that did decide to marry him or even date him. Caleb Wittmer might be a good man, but he wasn’t much fun to be around, and life should include some fun. Shouldn’t it?

  “We’re about to head over to see the alpacas.”

  “Oh, well, I hope it goes well, dear.”

  “Actually I was wondering...”

  “About?”

  “Lunch.”

  Ida started laughing again, and then she spread her arms to encompass the pile of goods their neighbors had brought. “We’ve been pretty busy in here.”

  “I see that.”

  “Our neighbors brought all of these things for Rachel.”

  “Wunderbaar.”

  “Honestly I forgot about making lunch, but I�
��ll throw some sandwiches together.”

  Caleb nodded as if that made sense. His mother brushed past him, humming as she went into the kitchen.

  “Let me guess.” Rachel couldn’t have stopped the smile spreading across her face if she’d tried, which she didn’t. “You’re not used to eating sandwiches.”

  “Actually I can’t remember the last time Mamm didn’t have lunch waiting on the table.”

  Rachel attempted to make sympathetic noises, but it probably came out like she’d managed to choke on something. She knew she should keep her mouth shut. Instead she said, “Men can make a sandwich, too, Caleb. Maybe you should give your mamm a little bit of a break here. Having me around? It’s a lot of extra work.”

  He narrowed his eyes and pulled in a deep breath.

  Rachel immediately regretted baiting him.

  “Your community has been very nice. They even brought me some appropriate clothing.” Oops. She’d done it again.

  Instead of aggravating Caleb, he seemed to relax. Perhaps poking at one another felt like safe ground to him. “That is a gut thing. I see you even have several kapps and bonnets there.”

  He picked one up. Unfortunately, it happened to be on top of the pile of underclothes. When he glanced down and saw the stack of underthings, he dropped the bonnet, turned a bright shade of red and then pivoted and fled from the room.

  Rachel grabbed a pillow and buried her face in it so that he couldn’t hear her laughter. Which felt so much better than worrying about what Caleb thought of her—that question was behind the laughter. She didn’t want to think about that, though, or about why it mattered.

  She needed to remember who she was. Borrowed clothes, a guest room in someone else’s house and Caleb looking over her shoulder to see if she was following the rules were not how she wanted to live the rest of her life.

  Chapter Three

  Caleb bought the seven alpacas that afternoon.

  His father had finally said, “You saved the money yourself. If it’s what you want, then give it a try.”

  “Strangest animal I’ve ever seen” was his mother’s only comment.

  Caleb spent the rest of the week making sure the alpacas had adequate space in the barn, reinforcing fencing where he would pasture them and generally getting to know the strange beasts.